Toddler Life Update
Happy Friday fam! If you live in the beautiful PNW you already know- it’s been a gray one. I wanted to do a simple life update for you guys since, well, that’s what I’m here for right? We have had a really rough last couple of weeks. We started off with a horrid 24 hour flu, layered on all four canines cutting at once, sprinkled a cold over sleep regression, all on top of the basic toddler life (testing boundaries, separation anxiety, etc). It really was a solid shit sundae!
There were days in the last couple of weeks that tested my patience more than ever before. I raised my voice in ways I’m not proud of and struggled with balancing self-care and parenthood. Finn was attached to my hip, barely napping, making cleaning (and eating, and sleeping, and getting dressed, and showering, really life in general) near impossible. It was a different kind of exhausted compared to infancy.
But looking back at those horribly long days the storms aren’t what stand out. With every tantrum came an “I’m sorry” kiss. With every nap skipped came a mid-day movie snuggle sesh. And in those horrible fits I was able to see glimpses of who my little boy was becoming, bear with me…
Finn hadn’t napped for three days straight, was waking up at 5:45 every morning, and testing EVERY ounce of patience I possessed. I had just spent an hour getting him down for a nap, only for him to wake after five minutes. After waiting in hopes he would put himself back down, I went to grab him. He was in such a fit he hit me and I couldn’t hold it together anymore. I broke down. The tears would not stop flowing. I sat on the ground with my face in my hands, then I felt Finns tiny little hand touch mine. I opened up and he handed me his favorite snuggie then crawled into my lap to give me the biggest hug. There he was. That is my little boy.
Toddlers are no joke. They can be aggressive and stubborn and untamed and difficult and it’s so hard to look forward when you’re in the thick of it, but they’re going through some serious shit and need a safe place (us) to feel. I’ve been going back to that moment every time I start to feel my temperature rising and It really helps. I actually don’t think I have ever held onto a moment tighter than I do that one.
Not all days have been bad ones. We have spent a solid amount of time with our friends, went to the beach, lots of hikes, a day trip to Leavenworth. And it seems like we are on the upswing- Finn is still the happiest little man cub in the world, especially since he’s began to value sleep again! Now if only we could get that sunshine to come back!
I hope you all have the most wonderful weekend and if you’re in the middle of a rough time with your mini I hope you can find little moments of bliss to hold tightly to.